propanol, dieting and other slow deaths

Okay. I'm a bit on the chubby side. I get it. No need to point it out to this chunky monkey. But hey, it's not like I sit on the couch for hours on end shoveling down endless bits of junk food. I exercise watch what I eat and (tragically enough)watch the scale rise.

So to you dear audience- I pour my sorrows. Rather than reaching for that oh so trusty bag of flips; I get my fingers typing.

This has been the year for the worse migraines ever. You know those one that people get hospitalized for, and they think they just might not walk out alive. Yeah. Those lovely motherfuckers. I get them. I always figured that half of people think that migraines are just really bad head aches. Reality check. They aren't. They can make you go blind and effect other motor functions. Try watching a customers face as you start to lose the ability to control motor functions. Like... I dunno... the ability to talk? Or worse... Cue farting noise. <-- best case senario.

So they put me on propanol. I hate it. hate. hate. hate it. Side effects include but not limited too : Propranolol is generally well tolerated, and side effects are mild and transient. Rare side effects include abdominal cramps, diarrhea, constipation, fatigue, insomnia, nausea, depression, dreaming, memory loss, fever, impotence, lightheadedness, slow heart rate, low blood pressure, numbness, tingling, cold extremities, sore throat, and shortness of breath or wheezing.

Did I mention its suppose to help P.T.S.D (post traumatic stress disorder)?

Yeah.
That's what I needed. A giant batch of more weight gain, memory loss and a horrid case of the shits. Thank you medical community. You did us migrainers a solid.

Now, I guess you're wondering why I haven't gone to the doc to get off this. Simple, hospital visits (for cripling pain) have dried up all my insurance and if I just stop using the drug. I could die. So here is the plan. One call to the doc to get off this and a trip to the herbalogist.

I don't like shoving pills in my body. it doesn't seem natural. It seems like a bad idea to mess with homeostasis with out finding out the source first.

So, I log off dear (albeit tiny) audience to exercise futilely. If that doesn't work, I'm going to blow up my scale and blame it the meds... one plus side right?